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starscreamingg · 2 months ago

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My surgeons telling my stoned ass where my boobs went

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dazai-on-my-mind · 9 months ago

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I keep getting notes about how others see Aroace Dazai AND YET THERE'S NO POSTS ON IT????

Like where are the analysis about Dazai feeling disconnected from humanity and how things like love and sexual desire are two of the main things that people say make us human (incorrect but not the point). Why is no one talking about the vulnerability required to even participate in a romantic or sexual relationship???? Dazai Osamu the man whose bandages serve as an allegory on how he won't allow anyone to come too close and see underneath his facade.

And as much as I keep thinking about the nurse scene and Chuuya's threats to send Dazai's address out there are still multiple plausible explanations that aren't related to him having a sexual relationship with any of those women.

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allthegothihopgirls · 7 months ago

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the world if my different medical specialists knew how to coherently communicate with each other

#i'm so over it #a month + still no mri results even though they've been set up for over a year to go straight to my gp from the radiologist #3 phone calls. 2 release of info consent forms. still no results #and my ent specialist apparently just. never sent over the documents to my gp from when i spent a week and a half in hospital last year #which are like. the most important documents to have for the stuff going on rn #and my gp was supposed to talk to my neurology team about smthn and have appointments set up #but that never happened so im going to have to do it myself #hoping i have a doctor free weekend at least..#have spent the past month of weekends in different medical facilities #gothihop speaks

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dani-the-goblin · 6 months ago

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#me the past few days:#“why am I so anxious and scatter brained? why are my sh habits coming back? I'm doing fine. My pain isnt even that bad rn.”#i thought at first i was dehydrated because I've been drinking less water but i realized today #im fucking exhausted #a storm ripped the roof off the hospital where I work last week #so needless to say work's been fucking weird AND busy #I've been churning out art like never before since figuring out AMM #I'm trying to get my life together and feeling a real drive and motivation to do that #I've never been so burnt out on things that I love before #i also realized I'm still mourning my grandmother #that was still less than a month ago and fuck it I'm sad #i need to rest but just dont know how rn #maybe I'll figure out after work #i hope i do

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 26 days ago

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it sucks that so much of my family has also dealt with cancer but it's really lovely that they were able to give me warnings about things

#a friend of mine just had a computer glitch and lost a bunch of work and i said it sucked and i'm sorry and asked if he could email his prof #and he's i think just really upset about it as i would be too bc that does suck so bad #but i don't have the energy to commiserate. i feel like a steaming pile of shit right now. i only got home 30 minutes ago from the hospital #and i have to go back tomorrow and then spend the rest of the day probably feeling like this while also having to go to another appointment #bc i need to get my earrings changed out so i can take them out for my body scan #and then going home with earl and setting up. and finally getting a bday gift to my friend as well and dropping that off #i feel increasingly gross and sick rn and this was just one injection #but my relatives were like 'listen. no one in your life is going to get this unless they've had cancer. and it sucks but that's how it is'#and i'm just very glad i got that heads up because i'm getting a lot of love and support from relatives now #esp the ones who also dealt with cancer #but it's just been radio silence from friends. and i get it i get they have their own lives and might not know what to say #but it does still hurt a little #i do have one friend who has been lovely and accommodating with the diet i have to be on #but my other best friend is just. i think with his school he has his own friends and his own life but. yeah. it just hurts a little #maybe i'm being irrational idk. something to discuss with my therapist today at our appointment #not everything is about me etc etc #this is the same friend who lost his work that i mentioned in the tags #cancer tw

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greghatecrimes · 7 months ago

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also HI if you have sent me asks and/or dms and i haven't answered them, i love u dearly and i am not ignoring u, i am simply Recovering from Mold. and trying to figure out when i can go back to my house akdjfjjeksjdje

#anya shush #personal #i'm in weird semi homeless limbo staying with family members #but all my stuff is still at my place #however i cannot live there rn because the mold sent me to the hospital twice!!#we gotta clean that bitch (my house)

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nobodybetterlookatme · 19 days ago

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I've never heard of emts working only at events? What's that like for you if you don't mind my asking?

Yeah, there are ambulance companies that staff certain events, but there's some event specific companies out there lmao. For me specifically, it's almost entirely college events, whether it's happening on a campus or not. It's not great, usually pretty boring, but it's better than being on an ambulance or in a hospital. We do get actual emergencies sometimes, but usually it's just getting drunk people to the tent or giving out water and bandaids lmao. Again, boring as fuck, but I chose this over working on a 911 rig, so that's on me 😔 if I'm being so real tho, other than my coworkers, the best part of the job is the food lmaoooo it's so good and all the food trucks/food booths give discounts or free food to us depending on the location and event. And there's almost always a ton of downtime, so I basically just get paid to sit there and vibe for the most part

#not snz #when i say i love my job i mean i love very specific parts of it lmao #idk if I've said it here before or not and this is gonna sound so bad coming from someone working in healthcare #but i don't like patients lmao #i love the book stuff and i love everything in theory and i know how everything works and I'm very enthusiastic about it #but man do i not like patients ahskaksk #there are exceptions obviously but those are few and far between #it's why i love being an emt at my fire station bc we don't reslond to medical calls #like I've done medical calls there for the public but very rarely bc people either approach us or we stumble upon them #so i really only do my emt things on the people i know and i love that #i love my coworkers so I'm always happy to make sure they're okay and help them out when they're not #but i feel nothing for the public and i didn't realize i genuinely couldn't care less about them until i started doing my clinicals #it's just awkward and I'm not invested in them i just like figuring out what's wrong with them and interact with them as little as possible #again there are exceptions and i do like some of the patients but generally I'm just trying to hand them off asap #so yeah i do like working events bc the alternative is being confined to a tiny box or trapped in a hospital #i like being outside and being able to walk around the place and do things if i want to #and obviously i adore my partner #and even on the rare occasions i work with someone else all day i love my other coworkers too #and i mean yeah this might be more boring than working on an emergency rig However #it pays so much better #like why do y'all think my medic partner works there lmao he's actually good with patients and prefers the ambulance #but the pay in the field is shit so he gets paid way more working events than he would at the three letter company #insane actually that he makes over ten dollars more an hour working chill events than he would being overworked on a rig #anyway i digress #I'm looking into pathology assistant school rn bc there's like no patient interaction there but i still get to be nosy #so that's perfect for me lmao #everyone keeps saying i missed my calling as a vet tho like i don't cry when a dog dies in a movie lmao i wouldn't survive #working with animals would be amazing but the only thing that really gets you money is being a vet #so that can be a hobby

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quixotin · 1 month ago

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it is absolutely wild to me that the untimely passing of a pedophile and abuser causes more discourse in tumblr than an actual fucking genocide.

#yes i am talking about liam payne's death #is it regrettable? sure.#does it require ppl to post entire essays? mmmm. maybe not #look i'm not saying that people aren't allowed to grieve one ofntheir childhood idols #but like.#look at what they are grieving #and what they are not #the silence is LOUD #you don't believe me? bbygirl i got receipts #go to the palestine tag and look for lates and top posts #see how far down you have to scroll in latest to see any discussion after the donation posts (which are all under 10 notes btw)#now go to top and see the dates and the contents of the posts. notice anything?#see how it is BLATANTLY missing anything about the latest hospital bombing and that infamous video?#or the news about Israel invading a goddamn UNRWA BASE??#in layman's terms it invaded the united nations #now go to the liam payne tag (which rn is trending) and do the same #i rest my case.#you could argue that posts could be in a different tag like gaza. and you'd be wrong. it's the same result.#tumblr is probably the last social media on the internet where you can still somewhat control what shows up in your feed.#it's the only place where you can say 'forbidden' words with your whole chest and the website won't knock it down #as far as i'm concerned this website has more freedom of speech than insta tiktok and twitter combined.#and we're using it to... *checks notes* discuss the morality of a celebrity's death

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simonghostrileys · 1 year ago

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i finally got the job at my dream place which is a hospital and today i finished the week-long training course. sorry if i haven't been online that much or at all this week i've been pretty busy with things about this new job but we're doing it fam we're almost there 💪🏻

#liliana talks #gonna check my tracking tag and queue everything up rn #aside of the training course i've been studying and doing online courses given by the same institution #i'm really giving my 110% and more to this job bc i wanna be prepared for when i finally go to work #btw i'm gonna soon work at a hospital and it's the best hospital to have a job at in mexico #took me three whole years to finally have a job proposition at this place #it's my biggest dream and its finally becoming true and i still can believe it like i worked so hard for it #it all feels so surreal and i'm so happy and excited and everything #btw the hospital's name is instituto mexicano del seguro social (imss)#my fellow mexicans will know which hospital i'm talking about 😌

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damiemontclair · 11 months ago

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Is it ridiculous to think maybe this whole hospital thing and related business has mildly traumatised me? Is it ridiculous that I want to write about it in excruciating detail, just get the experience out on paper, on my blog, somewhere? It feels dumb but I want to write fic about it. I think it'd fix me.

#Still haven't really properly cried tho I am kinda tearing up as I write this #I'm not having a good mental health time rn ngl #The callous way some of the docs treated me; the way their sole focus was on reproduction without a single care for the hormones...#The generally terrible way I deal with surgery/post-surgery #It wasn't. As bad? The last few times?#I think I've also made myself forget a lot from the first 2 times #3rd time was more traumatising.#This last one tho... I never stayed for more than a night at the hospital. I never want to stay at a hospital ever again.#I never want to have surgery again #I swear if I have to do that again I will have my panic attack before they even put me under #It was so painful this time and people weren't listening to me at all when I told them the iv wasn't sitting right anymore #Nurses and doctors kept dismissing my opinions and wishes and needs....#It was like as a patient you're less than human.#My arm is still bruised from where they fucked up their blood draws...#I'm so tired but I can't seem to rest #I'm so full of emotions but I can't seem to let them go and *cry*#Its like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop #Pls ignore me amd my rambles I'm just. Not doing too hot rn.#damie talks

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zincbot · 7 months ago

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the hits stop coming and they don't stop coming

#every time i think i can't feel worse i discover a new blow #TO BE FAIR. IT'S PROBABLY NOT EVEN THAT BAD #i'm just like. really sensitive or something annoying like that #the worst part is that usually when i'm feeling low i can hinge my feelings on smth like 'if this happens that means everything will be okay #but then sometimes. it happens. and i still feel like the world is ending. so that didn't work now what do i do #ugh i didn't even feel this bad when i was like in the hospital a few months ago and it's literally just like. (in summary)#2 people i love are mad at me. i did really poorly in my exams and might lose my gpa. my car (highly attached) is breaking down and i need #get a new one #i start a new job tomorrow and i heard bad things about it from my classmates who started before me #+ i have serious doubts in my ability to dress neatly and well with all my shitty poorman clothes #+ i started breaking out #+ i just noticed i lost a bunch of weight likely from my hospital stay and i dunno how to get that back #+ my doctor said i'm not likely to get full mobility back at this point and it's upsetting me #also my spare tires are missing #ugh i'll be fine. i'll be fine i'll be fine i'll be fine. i'll be fine #i'm good at dealing BUT ONLY WITH SOME OF THESE. i can deal with the car and the job and the health. but interpersonal shit?#which is the thing upsetting me the most? wow surprise surprise local autist doesn't do people good #UGH anyway sorry for complaints on main i just feel like i got too many straws rn #it's 10:30pm i'm sure i'll feel better in the morning (ignoring the fact that i've been feeling almost exactly like this for days)#ugh. it's fine. i'll deal. only way out is through or whatever

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daz4i · 1 year ago

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actually i should use my disability status more. next time someone criticizes me for being unable to do something I'm just pulling my disabled card out to make them shut up

#and if they keep going. idk. I'll just try to guilt trip them ig.#''you know what disabled means? it means i am unable to do certain things. you trying to force me to do them can put me in a lot of pain -#- if not straight up danger to my life. would you pay for my hospital bills if i need to go there?''#this is a bluff. well the pain part is real but no real danger afaik. still if i have the guts to lie irl i might do it #ignore me I'm just fantasizing of a braver me rn.

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lunapwrites · 1 year ago

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I think that the hospitals in Texas are unfairly nice given how little of a fuck its legislators give about healthcare.

#obviously not all the legislators #but a majority #and enough of the populace to make life difficult.#anyway i got an impromptu tour of the ER last night #(i am apparently fine just a scare)#and i was confused by how many nurses were helping me #i was like.#how. how many people do you have on staff???#maybe it's the area I'm in rn IDK #but at my local there were a fraction of the people on staff for the entire ER #as there were helping just me last night #the standard of care was noticably better #and it feels weird to treat this like a trap but like #i just remember back in January #having to go in for a heart thing #and having to bust out my credit card while i was still in the hospital bed lol #they didn't even send me to a desk here I'm #what #they were so nice???#anyway all hospitals should be like that #but also you know. provide safe access to healthcare regardless of religion or political belief.#wild opinion i know #us healthcare #(or more like healthcaren't lol)

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eleni-cherie · 2 years ago

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this fanfic from 8-9 years ago I'm rereading is so fcking good w so many layers and plot twists goddd fanfics used to be this good back then and didn't even need smut for it.

++ what ppl consider angst nowadays doesn't come near the actual angst from back then.

+++ side-characters that were actually important for the plot and also had their own deep and plot relevant background stories and weren't just there for the sake of it?? it was a thing back then!!

#fanfics #wattpad #fandoms #idk y'all but back then I read like 60+ 5sos fanfics and so many left a lasting impression on me that I still remember them even now #can't find any bts fanfics that can compare to the angst #or the multiple layers or plot twists or character developments #the story I'm rereading rn is a calum mafia story but also bit college au in the beginning and god it's so good #probably my fave fanfic ever #this or the mental hospital one which was also a calum one #I miss these times #nowadays you don't find Angst like this anymore #ppl are too sensitive #you'd have to spoil every lil angst or plot twist or dramatic turn in the tags

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doggirl-narcolepsy · 1 year ago

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well... my wife has blood clots in her lungs again

#we spent all of sunday evening and monday at the hospital #I had to go home because they didn't have space for me so I couldn't stay there this night #now I'm just sitting here quietly going insane #she's fine and stable they have her on a blood thinner iv drip but I'm still just like.. in shock #everything went much smoother and less openly transphobic than last time and she actually got the meds she needed instead of just ibuprofen #It's just fucking awful to have to go through again #at least there's no dead/necrotized lung tissue this time #the clots just got exceedingly close to her heart which is why they have her on 24/7 heart monitoring at the cardiovascular department rn #I'm just having hard time keeping it together alone...

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alongtidesoflight · 2 years ago

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#okay so last year and the beginning of this year were an absolute nightmare #my mom's still hospitalised they changed her diagnosis three times #before they finally settled on a heart disease and shoved her into #surgery on friday #but she made it through and she's under medical supervision rn #and if everything goes well she'll be put into a rehab center soon #that's another one month stay though and i will have to juggle her everyday chores #ANYWAY #with my hospital stay and an ass full of diagnoses following that whole surgery ordeal and her #diagnoses and my sister living with me again and spiraling mentally for most of 2022 #it really was the year of testing my limits to the absolute max #but also the latest hospitalisation was a wakeup call to my family and they're finally starting to pull #their own weight again and it's just a relief to see it #i've started to focus on myself a little more and it feels good #it's just the exhaustion i can't deal with yet #i'm itching for a creative outlet though and i have many blorbo thoughts so #be prepared for somewhat of a return #i might just let the queue run out as a start #mutuals wave @ me

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